man.. [25 Sep 2003|10:19pm] [ mood | confused ] craaaaazy stuff is going on. im sort of out the loop. what's new. haha. benj and joel are having problems. matt and tony are too. i feel bad. i dont know how to confront them. i want them to know they can talk to me. if they want to. benji's been really down lately. i dont know what to do. ive read what's been going on. that still doesnt make it my business. benji mopes around. joel's trying so hard. i know he didnt mean it. i know how much he loves benj. but i also know how much benj loves him. something like that had to kill benji. it did. i believe he's dying inside. the look on his face when joel walks in a room... his eyes still light up... but quickly fade. i can see he's dying to hold joel again. he's just not letting himself. its sad really. i saw how happy he was before this shit. i can see both sides. im torn. i just want them to be happy. i want everyone to be happy. i know paul is happy. paul is jolly. i dont know. everything is so confusing. its hard to be in the same room with tony and matt. the tension is thick. so is the awkwardness. man... what has happened to us? gkdfgaklglkhdjfegthktfb ^my frustration. im out. my head hurts. haha. peace out my hommies... i cant pull that off can i? how come paul can? he's just a pimp. 4 comments|post comment

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