Current mood:

blah

man
damn i dont seem to update a lot.
only when the twins have problems.
they seem to be having a big one right now.
everyone seems to be having problems right now.
linzi and i are "taking a break"
she decided it.
she couldn't go to japan.
so she got upset at me.
which makes it my fault.
of course it's my fault.
everything seems to be that way with her.
whatever.
anyways.
i stopped over by benj and joels.
to see how they were.
plus i had to get some papers from them.
joel wasn't there.
i didnt know why at first.
wasn't tell i came home and read everything.
benji looks like shit.
pale, dark circles, hair all over the place...
i just saw him at christmas.
he didn't look that thin.
i dont think he's eaten these past 3 days.
i didnt know what to do.
not sure what to say.
he hurt joel.
but i know he didn't mean it.
id be in the position as joel...
if someone i loved did that to me.
but on the other hand...
everyone knows how much benji loves joel.
we all watched benji break down this tour...
because of the events that happened with joel.
we watched benji stay up nights on end to watch over joel.
im sure all of us listened to benj go on and on about how much he loves joel...
all you had to ask was...
"how are you and joel?"
he'd just start and never stop.
im pretty sure he'd tell you every reason he loves joel.
i really hope they can work things out.
the rest of the world would only be so lucky to get something like what they have.
im always around for them to talk to.
but none of it really my place.
so i suppose im going to shut up about it.
my phone is ringing.
im sure it's linzi.
she probably thinks im off doing something with someone else...
she ended it with me!
akjrhilgu wrhjnljkh < frustration!
later.